all of the stars (Koda)

[Melissa Jessabelle Reed]

841 words	Sgt. Koda Evans
outfit	first post!

IT'S JUST ANOTHER NIGHT AND I'M STARING AT THE MOON

Weekend evenings were usually the worst. Not for lack of things to do, because Melissa could easily find things to do. Be it a party, cleaning the house, or simply writing to her family across the ocean. Lack of things to do was not the problem for those nights. No, the issue was that she was stuck eating alone normally. Sure, she could very well eat with her dogs, but that lost its charm after Friday night, especially Baby kept begging during the whole meal. Completely ignoring and half losing her own meal in the process, mind you. It was a bit of a disaster, which Melissa aimed to avoid some of the time. This was how she found herself driving into the city and parking outside of a Chinese restaurant. The Chinese place wasn’t a quick choice. Oh no, Melissa rarely made snap choices without thought on her own. Was she spontaneous with friends? Sure, but then it was fun because it was more than just her. Being spontaneous alone was just weird and boring, like eating gross food alone. It just wasn’t worth it. So, the Chinese place was well thought out, and she felt happy about it. Besides, Chinese was the one food that the alpha’s family seemed to hate the most. No telling why, but it was a type of food she never had with them. So, it was nice to get every so often alone because she knew how Kairi just hated it. Melissa had no idea why they hated Chinese food, just a quirk she assumed.

Arriving at the place, Melissa parked her little 2001 intrigue into the parking lot and hopped out. Did she look dressed up for the semi-formal Chinese place? No, not in her own opinion anyway. She wore a mini dress and leggings, but she supposed in the student’s opinion she was indeed dressed semi-formally. At least if their habits of dressing had anything to say about it. Which is that most of them wore leggings, shorts and tee shirts. A very strange style if she had anything to say about it. Slinging her purse on her shoulder, she locked up her car and headed inside. There appeared to be a short waiting period between arriving and being seated, so Melissa took up a place waiting. Thankfully or not, because she was a party of one she was more easily seated. They put her at the bar within five minutes of her waiting, which was nice. Sitting down, Melissa swiveled her chair a bit before getting comfortable and awaiting the waiter’s arrival. Picking up the menu, she started skimming over and deciding what she wanted. Would she have sweet and sour chicken? Chicken lo mein? Shrimp fried rice? What about dessert? Would she have anything for dessert or simply run to the store for some ice cream? Kairi would likely appreciate a supermarket run for some much needed supplies. Did she have the money in her bank account to buy everything they needed? Pulling out her phone, she checked her balance and was pleased to find that she did indeed have enough. Plenty of money for shopping and dinner, which was good. Settling back once more, Melissa finally made a choice on her food.

It was a good thing she did make a choice too because in that moment a waiter appeared on the other side of the bar. Looking up, Melissa smiled and waited for him to finish his spiel about their specials and such before explaining what she wanted to drink and eat. He seemed quite pleased that she had it all figured out and took her menu with a smile before vanishing. Amused by his reaction, Melissa took out her phone and decided to text Kairi about it. Sure, she wouldn’t receive Melissa’s text until later, it was still nice to share her experience with someone. It was in that moment that someone began walking towards the bar, a few seats away, which caught Melissa’s attention. The scent was familiar, but she couldn’t place it. She didn’t want to turn, hoping that it wasn’t an old friend or something. Perhaps a friend she had while with Koda? She hoped not, but then hoped so all the same. Perhaps they could tell her how Koda was doing? She did so wonder how he was. Why hadn’t she tried to reconnect with him yet? Fear was the answer. Melissa was afraid to face his reaction to it all, especially two things; werewolf and miscarriage. Deciding to take a risk, Melissa turned to look who it was. And speak of the devil, it was Koda Evans. Melissa drew an utter blank for a short time, just staring in his direction. It was uncomfortable and tense for a moment. Sadly her staring caught his attention or perhaps someone else did, for whatever reason, he looked in her direction and she let a smile cross her lips before giving a childish sort of wave in his direction. Well, this was a bit awkward.

I SAW A SHOOTING STAR AND THOUGHT OF YOU

HAYANA OF CAUTION 2.0

[Sgt. Koda Evans]

Things were just… Not where Koda wanted them to be. His ex-girlfriend was a demon and she gave birth to his baby girl… Then died. Kida was kind of glad she was gone but yet missed her. Heck, he missed a few girlfriends of his, but he didn’t peruse. Some ended on good terms, others bad, but he kind of didn’t think they’d accept him… Even more so with a little one under his wing. He didn’t really care anymore… His life was in shackles anyways. He did get what he always wanted: a child; however, it wasn’t the kind he wanted. Half demon? Really? Every day Koda didn’t know if he loved her or hated her. The fatherly side of him always came out and every time Caroline was in trouble or danger, he always saved and protected her. So that showed that he loved her, right? Koda didn’t know. She was his world but… That demon thing… He didn’t know how to go about it.

Sometimes Koda wanted to be alone, so he went to Kami’s house. His cousin… Whom already had five kids and just turned twenty-one. He was an unfortunate soul like Koda. Triplets and twins versus a demon offspring. Kami didn’t know and Koda didn’t tell him. Nonetheless, Koda loved all Kami’s children and Kami absolutely adored Caroline. Kami volunteer to watch over his little girl while Koda took some hours to himself.

What did Koda do? Go back home. The man sat down on the couch and watched some television. What did he watch? The Sopranos. It was the only thing else on that he liked at this time of the day. Flipping through some more channels, Koda got bored and turned off the television. Walking over to Nevermore’s food bowl, Koda gave him some more food and re-filled his water. The wolf-hybrid ate his food with a wagging tail. “Auf Widersehen.” And with that Koda left his house and got into his car. Putting in an Eisbrecher CD, Koda turned up the volume a bit before checking his mirrors. Seeing his kids baby seat in the back of his car made the man sigh.

What he wanted was food, so that was why he was driving downtown. He was sick of eating the food at home so this was a rare treat for him. Parking in the lot, Koda soon walked inside of the place. It said seat yourself so Koda was walking off to find a spot when his eyes locked onto eyes so beautiful and at the same time didn’t know if he loved them or not. He gave a soft wave, unsure of what to do. Swallowing up his pride, Koda walked over to her. There was mixed feelings here. He loved her still… But kind of didn’t want to get involved or get his hopes up due to quite a few factors in his mind. “Is this seat taken?” He spoke, looking down at her and motioning to the seat next to her. Instead of sitting alone maybe he could talk and eat? Or would it just be awkward and quiet? Maybe he should have just waved and walked away? Crap…

[Melissa Jessabelle Reed]

### words	Sgt. Koda Evans
outfit	^^

IT'S JUST ANOTHER NIGHT AND I'M STARING AT THE MOON

She felt completely foolish. If Kairi were here with her, she'd be face palming herself so hard she'd leave a red mark. It was entirely sad. It was like a gradeschooler waving at her crush for the first time. Thankfully, Koda was her gradeschool crush who was equally as dorky and shy. His wave was just as silly, which caused her smile to widen. He was entirely too adorable. Made her wish she could hug him and get away with it. Too soon? Yeah, she figured it would be. Honestly, she was more than happy with the fact that he didn't straight up ignore her. She was the one who ended their relationship before. Good note or not, she felt like she was the bad guy. So, then why was he coming over? She felt confused, but when he spoke, her whole body tensed for a split second. He wanted to be near her? She relaxed after that split second. Of course, of course, he didn't know she wasn't still the same. Not still human. He didn't know about anything, she reminded herself.

Smiling just as brightly as she always did, Melissa gave a shake of her head in negative. "No, but it is now. Please, join me. Dinner will be a million times better with you here. You know?" she asked with a curious look. Did he really know? She doubted he still dreamed about their time together. It was near impossible that he would want to be together with her again. Not wish how things went. And certainly not with her being what she is now. A werewolf. The icing on the cake was their unborn child. Oh, how she wished that was not something. A conversation for another day she hoped.

Looking up at the waiter as he took Koda's order, Melissa had a moment to collect herself. When the waiter departed, she felt more at ease. Turning her attention to Koda, she shrugged. "So, how have you been? Anything exciting going on?" she asked, hoping to get some sort of conversation flowing. Something going so she didn't feel her own thoughts drowning her in a sea of depressing-ness. It was very annoying to say the least.

I SAW A SHOOTING STAR AND THOUGHT OF YOU

HAYANA OF CAUTION 2.0

[Sgt. Koda Evans]

Even after all these times, Koda probably looked like a copy of the man before. No ring on the finger no tan line of one. He didn’t seem to grow any gray hairs lately, though had some bags under the eyes just faintly. But that was from the overtime and the child. He didn’t gain any weight, he basically looked the same as he did when they mutually broke it off. On the outside he didn’t seem to change, but did he change on the inside? A lot could change a man… Even more so finding out one of the women you loved was a demon and pregnant with a Satan spawn… That you now raise by yourself. Guess he was more and more like what his brother called him: An archangel – ruthless, blunt, and does what was right… Even more so to demons more now than any other time. Was she the same as when he left her? She seemed the same, possibly more beautiful though. She was like wine as he always said… She seemed to always look better as the months progressed. Hopefully, in Koda’s mind, she changed her personality a bit. If not, he wasn’t going to cling to that tiny slimmer of hope forever.

He got enough courage to approach her and ask if the seat was taken. Not saying anything, Koda just gave her a small ‘thank you’ smile before sitting down next to her. He opened his mouth to speak but the waiter approached them and Koda immediately grabbed the menu. A quick scan and he finally opened his mouth again; giving the waiter his order. Of course he got something with chicken and shrimp in it… He always seemed to have to have ‘surf and turf’ no matter what. It cost a little extra for the shrimp but he was cool with it. This was a treat for him and he didn’t have seafood that often when he ate at home.

When Melissa spoke, Koda looked over at her; his hands were on the counter-top in a slightly relaxed way. “Uhh,” He spoke, recollecting his words for a brief moment, “I’ve been busy, but good.” Well, that was short and sweet. There was a lot of stuff he could say like he was with a demon! And she had his demon baby! Then she died and left the demon baby with him! And being a single father to something he hated yet loved at the same time was kind of killing him inside! But she didn’t deserve to know that. “Applied for a promotion. We’ll see how that goes…” That was all the news? All that he was willing to tell her right now. “What about you? How have you been all this time? You haven’t seemed to age a day, you know that right?” With a pause he took a sip of his water, “So where’s your boyfriend?” Yup, he went there. “Got any kids yet?” And there also.

[Melissa Jessabelle Reed]

### words	Sgt. Koda Evans
outfit	^^

IT'S JUST ANOTHER NIGHT AND I'M STARING AT THE MOON

Life was normal. Really, truly it was. Aside from the werewolf monthly run and mini pack meetings, there was nothing different about her life. She still worked with the same preschool. The faculty were for the most part aware of what had happened, so were behind her much needed time away. They wondered why she seemed so perky, but most just wanted to take a similar trip. Melissa knew better than that. They did not want her exact trip, not werewolf and miscarriage all. Of course, she told them the trip was to cope with the miscarriage. White lie, but they'd never know the difference. So, life was just the same as before. Totally the same, really. Okay, so now she could eat whatever she wanted and not show. Her metabolism was wicked fast, which was awesome. So awesome!

Koda was adorable. Okay, so guys didn't really like to be called that, did they? No, she didn't think so. Regardless, the way Koda smiled, the raise of his brow every so often, it was all adorable. He was entirely to attractive for his own good. No way was he still single. Her face didn't show this. Nope, a warm smile was planted on her lips as she listened to his words. Busy, but good, was he? A short pause later, and he gave more. More was better. A promotion? Oooh! "What's your title if you get this promotion, Mr. Evans?" she asked with a playful grin and coy tone to her voice. Was she flirting? Oh, yes, hard core flirting. He'd know. She was not the subtle type, never had been. Though, if she remembered correctly, he thought it was cute. Her not-suble flirting was cute to him. That was an ego booster.

His questions were normal, though the last one made her stomach clench. Yes. I had your baby, Koda. She was beautiful. Her smile waned a bit, but she recovered and gave a shrug and tip of her head. "Well, not too long ago I went on a trip over to Europe. It was pretty great. Good and bad times. Met my present roommate over there, she's great. Her name's Kairi. The family is doing good too. Ask how you're doing a lot, by the way. Mom demands that you join us for a meal. Up to you there, no pressure. Ha, who am I kidding? All the pressure!" she rambled before giving a light laugh at the idea of her family being told he couldn't make it. They'd be pouting the whole meal. It was how they were. He'd understand. He'd met them. Tipping her head back and forth, she spoke again. "Me? I'm doing good, working the same job, living in the same place, and continuing to add critters to my home. Never can have too many, right?" she said with a full on smirk. Animals were her weakness, aside from him. He knew this.

"Thanks, though I doubt I haven't changed at all. A few gray hairs maybe?" she joked, lightly motioning to her hair with an amused smile. Giving a light 'ha', she shrugged. Now, it was time for those last two questions. Smirk still in place, she answered, "Naw, no boyfriend. Had Kairi's brother express interest, but total arse. Too self-absorbed and rude." she explained simply with a shrug. Was it weird telling her ex about some guy who hit on her after nearly killing her? Yeah, it was super awkward. Did he know mister-self-absorbed had murdered Koda's unborn child? No, but then he didn't know that the same guy had almost killed her too. Arse was an understatement. Grinning at him, Melissa returned the question. "Alright, Koda, same goes to you. Hot guy like you must have to chase the ladies off like juvinile delenquents, right? And kids? Got any of those pitter-patter feet?" she asked grin still firmly in place. This was good and not awkward at all. Maybe it wouldn't be so hard to talk to him about the other stuff. Not here. Another time. Maybe at the park? Or one of their homes? Somewhere less crowded so he could freak out without doing so in public. Yeah, that sounded good.

I SAW A SHOOTING STAR AND THOUGHT OF YOU

HAYANA OF CAUTION 2.0

[Sgt. Koda Evans]

The man didn’t expect to meet the woman here, but here she was… His ex just at the bar and there was no way to pretend that their eyes didn’t meet. It would be even more awkward if he just turned his head and walked away. So it would be less harm if he just walked over to her and sat down. Hopefully he was boring enough or something happened so that they didn’t have to talk too much. He still had deep feelings for her but she left him. It was that and some other small things that just killed Koda’s honor. Nonetheless, the two talked. About what? Koda for now… “The title would be Staff Sergeant.” Since he was already a sergeant already. Koda was a darn good solider in the field. Nearing thirty and was a sergeant already… And in the S.W.A.T. field to boot. Though her tone signified flirting… Well, it felt like flirting. Koda was confused and what usually happened – he flirted back, sometimes on accident.

She went overseas to Europe? Sounds like she ran away to get away from him and to cool off. Koda almost said something about that but he kept his mouth shut. He will kill his pride for a moment to retain a nice conversation. “I am a busy man so I am not too sure about the meal. And…” He said and then just spoke the blunt truth, “Wouldn’t it be awkward – inviting your ex to dinner? We’re not even dating anymore.” If this was a joke on her end, he took it all too seriously. That was Koda for you. He was kind of a blunt and literal type of man. “All I need is Nevermore. So I wouldn’t know. Heh.” He tried to make the previous statement less awkward as much as he could. “Was thinking of breeding him, though.” Having his legacy live on was a dream to Koda, after all.

Though he liked talking about his achievements and such, he didn’t really like to talk about himself. More so, he was scared of slipping up and talking about how he had a baby with his ex. That was something he didn’t want to come out. Yes, his baby was a secret to her… At least for now. Maybe when he trusted her enough again he will let her know or if she comes over one day or even sees him out and about with his little girl – then she will know. Until then, not now. So, he changed the subject to her. She must have a man and kids by now, right? She was beautiful and had a good personality so why not? Plus, this was a subtle way for him knowing her status…

So no boyfriend. That was good, right? No, he wanted her happy… But then again he wanted her at the same time, didn’t want her. Oh, the complication. “Actually, I work too much to be in a committed relationship.” Did that mean he had some fun here and there? A few times he slipped, otherwise no… He kind of liked to be intimate with a person he loved… He wasn’t too up for the lust game. “No, no kids.” Kids as in seven plus, right? No babies. That was different. At least to Koda. So… He technically didn’t lie… But then again, technically didn’t tell the whole truth. Koda was a sneaky man indeed.