NIGHTMARE • buffy

[Adam Thanatos Delfino]

and i know you hear their voices

and i know they may seem real

It wasn't that long ago that... Hell had happened to him. Hell... Adam was just a normal human being and now he was something totally different. Some sort of monster that wanted other people's blood. It was sickening to the man... But he was not alone. He came into contact with some others like himself, however, they were older than he was and often started crap with him for being a weak fledgling. Feeling so lost, alone, out of place, and hideous (not outside, but inside), Adam turned his back on his friends and family. Well, his friends. He was kind of stuck with his family. At least he managed to convince them to let him work nights... It was good for due to people walking around, the goofer dust that was located on the floors and windows were used and needed to be replaced... Which made him be able to walk into the store without stopping like he hit an invisible wall. Now that was painful... It was a miracle his father didn't see that happen. Else he might be in a world of hurt. Who knows.

Either or, the man was on his own. It was halfway his decision on this. Half of which was this new feeling of what he is; what he became. He was a monster that sucked people dry and most of the time killed them... He was a monster! He needed to get away from people... Too scared of death, so this was the next option - going in hiding; except for his family here and there. If he hid from them they'd know something was up, which was not something he wanted. So he tried his best to stay away from the light... And if he had to work on the day shift he came in early and made sure the place was darker as well as stayed away from the light. At least he worked at the store two-ish days... The other job was the other five, so it wasn't that bad. Not like he could complain...

Hunger... Instead of going to work he called off sick. Claimed it was the flu or something and with his scratchy voice from starving himself, they believed him. So he was at home, hungry out of his mind... A part of him didn't want to feed as he was still stuck thinking about what he did some days ago. He killed a woman. An innocent woman who he found out was engaged and with child. He felt so horrible... But this hunger, it was driving him insane! Adam already threw items across the room in a 'hangry' rage. Pacing around his home with his mouth open to breathe since his nose couldn't handle his rapid panting, his anger started to rise, along with his unremarkable hunger. He didn't want to eat but now the hunger was winning over. Throwing another item, a picture frame, across the room, he soon stomped to the door, opened it, and slammed it shut behind him - not even bothering to lock it behind him. He didn't care right now. All he cared about was food. Any food.

He walked alone in the cold winds, though not like he could feel them well. Apparently becoming a monster of the dark, also known as a 'vampire', he was more or less cold-blooded and much colder than normal. His temperature was colder than normal, however he did sometimes adapt to the surrounding temperature, though that was a rare gift in itself. Call it the chain of survival. When things got crappy, his body reacted. However, when it got crappy for his body and his body reacted much like now with his starvation, it just ended bad, unlike temperature fluctuation. So with hunger basically controlling him, Adam walked out of his neighborhood – which was quite barren at this time of night. With no people outside but heartbeats calmly beating from inside the house, heard by sensitive heightened vampire ears, there was no one to feed from. Though when he entered part of the city, he almost lunged at a few cars; hissing as they drove close by him. He couldn't help it, they were so close but around metal... Though that didn't mean crap when it came to a vampire, with their increased strength and all. However, cars were too annoying for him, and apparently his body agreed, so the man continued to walk; growling in his wake and getting more irritated along the way.

Walking away from the noisy city, which was getting to be an annoyance and a pain to his heightened and sensitive hearing, he ventured out again and soon found himself walking on the sidewalk in a more enclosed area. A deserted road with a lot of trees around. Mobile homes and small houses scattered the elongated front lawns... Though to his left, a sign, and much more mobile homes... His heart raced... As he heard heartbeats so close once again, and some much louder – an indication there wasn't anything in the way to dim it down some, which only meant that they were outside... In the open. Deciding that was better than nothing, Adam went to investigate.

Walking down a small dirt road, he soon passed some homes and soon felt the heartbeat that was so loud, he swore he could almost feel it. The person was close. Licking his lips, he ventured into the darkness where the streetlights that resided here and there didn't shine so well. Soon, he found the man, outside checking something. What was he doing? Oh, no, he wasn't checking anything, he was having a smoke break. Adam smelt that smoke for a while now, and now he knew the source. Without hesitation or looking around, Adam lunged at the man, slamming him down on the ground. The cigarette managed to fly up by his neck and by the time he slammed the man down, it was under his shirt a bit; burning his neck a tad. Growling, Adam ripped part of his shirt so the cigarette fell out. As the man pushed up on Adam, trying to get free, Adam slammed him back down. As the man opened his mouth, trying to speak, Adam quickly put his hand over his mouth and quickly dug his fangs into the mans neck; drinking as if he didn't have much time.

Soon enough, the man's heartbeat slowed down and his protesting body movements did as well. Soon enough, Adam pulled his face away, but it was too late. Dum dum... Dum... Dum.... Dum. And then it all stopped. Gasping softly, Adam looked down at the lifeless man underneath him. Oh gosh... He killed again. Control... The man lacked it dearly. Hesitating a bit and hearing footsteps and heartbeats inside the home right next to him, Adam got up and rushed off; trying his best to stay in the darkness before slipping out of the mobile home area. With his arms around his abdomen, Adam walked with his face downwards, almost in mere shame. It was then that he felt a heartbeat. Maybe a little too late than he wished to, for he was concentrating on what just happened than anything else. So now, he couldn't run away or hide. Quickly, however, he wiped his face a bit, trying to rid the blood the best he could. However parts of his face remained a little pink, as if his chin was blushing... And his neck and chest, well, there was some blood there. Hopefully this person didn't notice anything as they walked by...

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[Buffy Evaine Dulay]

And it all comes down to you
------------------------------------I still see your bright eyes, bright eyes

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It had been a few weeks since the “incedent”. She hadn’t told her parent’s about it of course. She didn’t have any one else to talk to about it. She definitely couldn’t talk to everette about it. She didn’t want to seem like the selfish wh*re that she felt like. She sincerely wanted to be happy for him…and his kids. They had their mother back and he had his wife back. IT was great…and for the most part she was happy for them. She was just torn apart from letting herself fall in love with a man that she’d known from before that she couldn’t…and shouldn’t have. In two short days she’d felt as if she’d given him everything and lost herself at the same time. She felt as if she’d desecrated his home and their friendship. Whenever he’d called wanting to talk she’d find some excuses concerning school or work. She really couldn’t bear to see him right now…not to mention she was pretty sure that she was the last person that his wife would want to see around him.

She knew that when she saw him the first thoughts that would slip into her mind was that night…how amazing it was…and they were together…that connection that they had…that let her know that she’d be with him forever. If only forever was longer than a night. Then of course she could think of the fact that he was with his wife now…and very likely intimate with her…the thought made her cringe a bit. As if he could cheat on her? They’d never really been together. She was something that she’d never wanted to be… a one night stand. That’s all she was…at least that’s what she told herself…trying to let go…it really didn’t help any. She needed someone…the only person that she could turn to was her first best friend. As unreliable as he was she’d always done her best to hold onto him. Even while she was focused on caring for eve, though he’d pulled away from her she kept trying to be in touch with him. Though over the last few weeks he’d been pretty much unreachable. She’d left dozens of messages on his phone…in most of them she was in tears…explaining what had happened with Everett…though her last messages were more of concern for that fact that he hadn’t replied nor spoken to her and she was getting scared. She needed him…and he wasn’t there. Not surprising…but it still hurt like hell…it seemed as if she really had no one.

There had been a time in her life where she’d had feelings for Adam. However, He’d never seemed to reciprocate them so she just let it go and accepted her just friends status with him. Though in some ways she’d been closer with him that she had been with Everett. Eve knew all of her secrets because he could read her mind…which made her more open with him, but every secret that Adam knew was because she’d told him. ? She’d felt a natural comfort around him. Heck she’d even walked around him in her skivvies because she just didn’t care. Apparently he didn’t really care about her all that much either. Apparently she wasn’t even valuable as a friend to him since he couldn’t even pick up the phone to send her a message. She’d finally gotten fed up with trying to reach him and decided to go for a walk to the store to pick up something to drown her overly emotional state. Sure it was pretty late at night and as a young woman it probably was a bad idea for he to be walking out there alone but she honestly didn’t give a D*mn. She walked back from the convince store with her ice-cream in a bag when she saw someone walking by.

Her eyes widened and something similar to a smile almost came to her face. “Adam?” she said softly before stepping in front of him and quickly throwing her arms around him. “I’ve been trying to get in touch with you for almost a month! Why haven’t you replied to my messages? I was getting so worried. every time I came to your house you weren’t there and …D*mn it I hate it when you pull crap like this and you always do it at the worst possible moment. “ She said all in on breath. “I missed you.” She said softly while trying to stop tears from running down her face again. Heaven knows she was sick and tired of crying. She’d been doing enough of that over the last few days…well weeks honestly. She did notice the blood on him as she pulled back. “did you get into a fight?” She asked him. “What’s going on ?” She asked him. Something felt off about him. She was pretty quick to notice that he was a little colder than a normal human should be. “are you sick?” Even though she was surrounded by vampires that definitely wasn’t the first thing that she’d pull out . Why would she? Vampirism was a rather rare condition. Most normal people never even met a vampire much less were turned into one. That wasn’t going to be her first assumption.

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Tag:Adam Thanatos Delfino
Word Count:885
Notes: Hope this works
Lyrics: Gypsy-Fleetwood MAc
Template Credit: Solstice

[Adam Thanatos Delfino]

and i know you hear their voices

and i know they may seem real

The man couldn't help it. He was pushing everyone away, including his family which he somehow was doing good at hiding what he was from them. It was a miracle that they didn't figure it out right about now and he was grateful for that. Who knew if they would disown him or what. He hoped not. He loved them... However, he was scared of them. He didn't want to lose a family that he grew up with all because of an accident. He found out on his own that what he was is still the same thing as a demon – he could not enter if goofer dust was around. Salt, however, had no effect on him. Either or, the man was new at this and tried his best to hide it from everyone. With having no control, he pushed everyone he cared about aside... Except family for that was too suspicious and he basically lived with them. Friends and colleagues? Yes, sure, push them away!

Losing control again, this was not the first time, Adam felt a wave of nausea and regret fill his form. Walking off and wishing to get home soon, he soon found himself in the path of someone else. He tried his best to remove the blood on his facade but it didn't matter for the woman he bumped into, albeit not literally, was Buffy – the woman he loved but too afraid to make a move on. “I miss you too but I have to go.” He spoke trying to push her away from him. Obviously the man had something to hide and wasn't telling her something. Heck, he even skipped her question... Though then again he did that before this whole incident. That was just how Adam was. He was weird. “Yeah, sure.” He said it nonchalantly, just going with the flow and what she said. Yeah, sure, he got into a fight. Better than to say he attacked, drained the man of his blood, and ended up killing him because of it. “i got to go. Bye.” Walking around her, Adam bit the inside of his lip and tried to walk away from her without turning around. Though her heartbeat... It was so tempting to the fledgling.

//OOC: Sorry it's short. I'm tired.//

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[Buffy Evaine Dulay]

And it all comes down to you
------------------------------------I still see your bright eyes, bright eyes

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Buffy rose an eyebrow…I miss you too but I have to go? You haven’t talked to me for months and now all I get is an ‘I have to go?” She said not moving hersef out of his path. She looked at him confused. They way that he said yea sure meant that wasn’t the case. She ran up until she was in front of him again. “really…im that easy to toss to the side? Guess that explains a lot.” She said her words having a bit of double meaning to them. Ok , yes…it was logical that Everett had moved on away from her…he was supposed to. Honestly the separation was easier than facing him. She didn’t want to talk to him.. she didn’t want to see him. He had his wife and his children to attend to and they deserved all of his attention. The children really didn’t need her all that much anymore either. They had their mother back and he had his wife back. She was the only one left in the dark.

Apparently Adam didn’t seem much too interested in giving her open arms either. Though considering that she’d been desperately trying to get in touch with him even before everything had gone down with Everett perhaps she shouldn’t have expected more. It wasn’t as if it was the first time that Adam had ditched her for no good reason…perhaps they weren’t as good of friends as she’d thought they were. Still she wasn’t about to let him off of the hook that easily. She stood in front of him and stared him down…sure he was taller but still. “ you’re going to give me an explanation of why you haven’t talked to me…or answered my phone calls. Either that or you’re going o tell me what’s going on with you right now. I’m not letting you go unless I have a good reason to…because I don’t have much else to hold onto right now.” She said obviously being trouble by something. Her face was already streaming with tears though she’d tried to hold them back. She wasn’t as strong as she wished that she was but how many people could handle being tossed to the side in the lives of two people that you cared about most ?Even though Adam was in the friend zone now …there was a time when she’d even had feelings towards him as well. Was it some kind of curse that every guy she cared about would end up hurting her?

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Tag:Adam Thanatos Delfino
Word Count:427
Notes: Hope this works
Lyrics: Gypsy-Fleetwood MAc
Template Credit: Solstice

[Adam Thanatos Delfino]

and i know you hear their voices

and i know they may seem real

I have to go. It was basically all that he said to her. True, the man hadn’t seen her in months but what else was he supposed to do? He was deadly… He could kill her easily due to increased hunger. It was in his mind that he should push people away. It would keep them safe though tear him apart inside. It was worth it in the end. He wouldn’t kill anyone else. His friends, family, colleagues, they’d all survive… But he couldn’t tell her what he was. He just had to get away and hope she doesn’t follow nor question him. Though knowing her, she’d do exactly that. Why did he have to bump into her!? Why!? Maybe he was cursed? “Look. I have to go! Understand English and scram!” He hissed a bit with his words. The man was tired of her. Sure he missed her so much but she had to be pushed away and to the side like everyone else in his life. Why? Due to the sheer fact that he was nothing but a monster now. He was not a man anymore, but this creature of the night. In order to protect her she had to be discarded.

Once again, the man stepped to the side, trying to walk around her. He could easily grab her and toss her aside like a bag of potatoes, but that extra strength would lead to suspicion. He couldn’t risk that… Let along it could also get him to attack her. The man was hungry after all. She was in danger so he had to go! “Buffy! Let me go! Get out of my way!” His anger was getting the best of him and It caused his canines, the two up front, to increase in length. Not so much an alarming rate, but slightly noticeable if she was looking there. Though that was when he noticed her tears. Her face was all wet from them. Grinding his teeth a bit, Adam growled. Obviously she had one… For the moment. Though she wasn’t going to get her questions answered, she just got concern from Adam. “Stop crying.” With a pause, he added on, “Why are you crying!? Stop it!” He loved her deep down, so this sight was pure disgust to him.

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[Buffy Evaine Dulay]

And it all comes down to you
------------------------------------I still see your bright eyes, bright eyes

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Buffy had been almost on the edge of falling apart. It was one thing to have fallen in love with a widowed man. Though at least she’d accepted that nothing would happen between them back then. She was fine with her place with him. But , after what had happened …it was as if everything changed…in one day she had a future with him…but the next…she was nothing but a one night stand gone ary…basically the other woman. That was a place that she’d never wanted to be. She truly had felt as if she had lost everything . The worst part though…was that she had no one to turn to. Of cours she couldn’t confide in Eve. He had enough on his plate with his wife being back …not to mention just being near him was painful. She couldn’t tell her parent’s she was afraid of what they’d think of her. And the one confidant that she had…Adam…he was nowhere to be found…until she’d managed to run into him. Yet…he was pushing her away. She couldn’t hold herself together anymore and she begun to essentially weep in front of him…holding onto him as if he was the last tread of sanity that she had left…and he was still pulling away.

She scoffed a bit when he told her to stop crying. “are honestly asking me that? You’re right…why the hell would I be crying when someone who is supposed to be my best friend just told me to get out of his way like im some piece of street trash?” She felt enough like trash already. She’d recentlyslept with a married man…that was enough to make her trash right? Or a Wh*re …whichever title someone would prefer. “ Fine then…im trash! Not worth your attention or time… just meant to be left to the side until she’s swept away…but I don’t care…im not going until I get something from yo…” She said looking up at him and noticing how his canines were ever so slightly longer. Not something that any normal person would probably take note of but considering she’d grown up with vampires…” Adam?”She said looking him in the eye and wipn her face to make sure she was seeing clearly. The blood…the temper…the coldness of his skin under her hand. “When did this happen? When were you …changed?” she asked her hand was shaking as she’d suddenly realized. He’d obviously know what she was talking about. Tears continued to run down her face but for a completely different reason.

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Tag:Adam Thanatos Delfino
Word Count:428
Notes: Hope this works
Lyrics: Gypsy-Fleetwood MAc
Template Credit: Solstice

[Adam Thanatos Delfino]

and i know you hear their voices

and i know they may seem real

Being a vampire wasn’t as easy as Twilight and other shows made it out to be. Actually, over half of that stuff was pure garbage and wasn’t even close to being accurate. Adam had to find out these sort of things all on his own – and it was difficult tot ake it all in. His family didn’t know about the illness-disease that he had. They didn’t know about his vampirism, though Adam had a feeling that they had a small clue. They were his family. Sure, they were dark-skinned people that were the kindest in the land that adopted the poor boy, but Adam was their child. He wasn’t too sure on how they would react when they find out that he was a monster now. That their little boy was something that they practiced to get rid of. To them he would be a ‘demon’, and sadly, a lot of that demonic barrier stuff worked on vampires. Night was Adams friend and in order to protect everyone he had to stay away. Sure, that would draw suspicion but Adam had plans and so far it was working out decently. What the man didn’t expect was to run into Buffy at this time of night – of all things!

He wanted her to go and leave him alone. Sure he missed her, sure he loved her deep down (or so he thought), but he was also hungry. Adam was a monster when he was hungry! He tried his best to control himself but sometimes he slipped up and killed people. He could never forgive himself if he killed her, let alone hurt her. Turning around, Adam looked at her – his eyebrows pinched together a bit, getting irritated. “I never said you were trash! Stop assuming like some little child, Buffy!” He protested quite angrily. He was getting sick that she was trying to get him to stop and talk… And why was she even crying in the first place!? His expression showed that he wanted to ask more – that he wanted to ask her who hurt her. He was an over-protective friend to start off with… But he kept those words to himself. After all, he wanted to leave! He didn’t want to hurt her.

Though she kept on pressing his buttons and that’s when his canines elongated faintly. Just barely noticeable to catch them if one was looking at his mouth at that time. They didn’t seem to retract at all but stay at that length. His body was hungry and if Adam thought he was stubborn, his body was even more stubborn.”Leave me alone, Buffy!” He called out when she asked him what happened. Obviously she saw the fangs and Adam wasn’t stupid enough to tell her that she was crazy or that she was delusional. She saw, he knew, denying it would make him look like a fool. “Obviously it’s none of your concern.” See how stubborn he was? “Go home, okay?” The more he stood there next to her, the more he wanted to just dig his fangs into her neck or forearm…

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[Buffy Evaine Dulay]

And it all comes down to you
------------------------------------I still see your bright eyes, bright eyes

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She stared at him for moment. All that she wanted right now was for someone she cared abfut to hold her…remind her that she was important…but apparently that wasn’t going to happen. Two of the men that she once loved were both exiling her from their life….though Everett wasn’t doing it on purpose. She just didn’t really have any place in his home anymore after what she’d done. Guilt…jealousy…regret. All of these things were enough to keep her away. Of course it didn’t help that he hadn’t reached out to her either since the event…but his wife had just come back from the dead so that was far more important than some chick he had a one night stand with while he thought his wife was dead.

Her eyes widened when she realized what he was. Not out of fear but rather surprise. Not her problem? How could he ever not be her problem? “You are my best friend… it’s not just my concern it’s my responsibility. I can help you… I’ve had a secret. I know more this than you think. Why do you think my mother never came out during the day? “ She said looking him in the eye. There was obviously no fear in her eyes and this didn’t seem remotely foreign to her. “those bottles of vine in the fridge…they weren’t wine. I was raised by vampires…my parents can help you…unless you already have a sire?” she looked at him. “You won’t hurt me…just trust me…ok? I know that right now you thing that you are a danger to me but I can protect myself. You need help. You can’t do this alone Adam. Please…let me help you…it would be nice to be worth something again’ She said with a sad smile as she looked at him and moved a little closer… Even so she had one hand holding lightly onto the UV light on her key chain. She wasn’t an idiot. He was obviously a fledgling and was having trouble with control. Just one quick flash would be enough to deter him or temporarily blind him if needed. Then she could call her dad to come get them…either way she’d be able to help him. Though he’d probably just throw her away after she did to. It was always painful to realize that you were the disposable one in everyone’s life. Either way…she could focus on his problems now instead of her own….then get back to falling in misery later.

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Tag:Adam Thanatos Delfino
Word Count:428
Notes: Hope this works
Lyrics: Gypsy-Fleetwood MAc
Template Credit: Solstice